Great point from my daily meditation today that I thought I would share with you...
"Temptation cannot come from God - everything that comes from God is good... Some things that God either sends upon us or allows to happen to us do not seem to be good. And our faith undergoes one of its most severe tests when we are asked to believe that our God, our loving Father in Heaven, is allowing us in his mercy to suffer some bitter disappointment or sorrow or affliction."
"In all our troubles we must be sustained by that faith. Whatever comes down from the Father to us is good, and if we will trust him for the final issue, we shall one day see the goodness and rejoice in it."
Hang in there and keep the faith - God has plans for you and we must put our trust in Him in order to receive the gift on the other side of the pain.
God Bless You!
Friday, November 12, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
Wedding Bells Are Ringing Again!
Yes - that tinkling sound is wedding bells around my house. Not for me, silly one but for my daughter. You would think that I would be jaded against marriage after my experience but this is just such an exciting and blessed time for us all. My daughter and her fiance came together at a time when both were coming off horrendous life experiences. They knew each other in high school but went their separate ways after graduation. A co-worker of mine "re-introduced" them about 2 years ago and they've been together since then.
He is a wonderful man - both to my daughter and my grandson. He has a son from his previous marriage and the boys get along like brothers do. His family is as lovely as he is. All in all, a mother could not ask for anything or anyone better for her daughter. He even picked out the ring by himself and did a damn fine job of that - even got the size right.
So excitement is building around our family. The date has been set and the location of the ceremony and reception has already been reserved. We've got plenty of time for planning, etc (and also time to shave off some pounds and save some money) which makes it nice. But if I know my little girl, she'll have the whole darned thing planned by Christmas.
I figured that I would be torn about my daughter getting married - especially after my Prince Charming turned into Satan Incarnate - but I'm content. All marriages are not the same, just as all men are not the same. I feel like they have been together for 2 years and lived together since May so they know all about each other's little weird things, etc. The most important thing to me is that she truly loves him and he truly loves her. And my little grandson just adores him and the feeling is mutual. I don't even have a problem walking her down the aisle with her daddy (how sweet that she wants me to give her away also). Her father and I were able to bury the hatchet while waiting on the birth of our grandson, so we can manage to be nice to each other for our daughter's big day.
So another crazy chapter in my life is starting. One that will bring lots of joy, lots of anxiety and lots of tears. She's already set up an appointment to look at wedding dresses with me, my mom and her future mother in law. We plan on making that a day of just pure fun. And bless my little girl's heart - she wanted to know if it would be too weird for her to share a dance with me at the reception because, in her words, "Dad gets a dance with me so you should too". That brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.
I am just so proud and happy for my little girl. I am so grateful that TheColdOne is no longer in the picture - he was always such an ass about my daughter. He once told me that my daughter was just using me - guess after all that's happened that ended up being more like the pot calling the kettle black. Despite his negativity my daughter has grown up to be quite a woman and a mommy. No mother could ask for anything more. And this wedding is gonna ROCK!!
He is a wonderful man - both to my daughter and my grandson. He has a son from his previous marriage and the boys get along like brothers do. His family is as lovely as he is. All in all, a mother could not ask for anything or anyone better for her daughter. He even picked out the ring by himself and did a damn fine job of that - even got the size right.
So excitement is building around our family. The date has been set and the location of the ceremony and reception has already been reserved. We've got plenty of time for planning, etc (and also time to shave off some pounds and save some money) which makes it nice. But if I know my little girl, she'll have the whole darned thing planned by Christmas.
I figured that I would be torn about my daughter getting married - especially after my Prince Charming turned into Satan Incarnate - but I'm content. All marriages are not the same, just as all men are not the same. I feel like they have been together for 2 years and lived together since May so they know all about each other's little weird things, etc. The most important thing to me is that she truly loves him and he truly loves her. And my little grandson just adores him and the feeling is mutual. I don't even have a problem walking her down the aisle with her daddy (how sweet that she wants me to give her away also). Her father and I were able to bury the hatchet while waiting on the birth of our grandson, so we can manage to be nice to each other for our daughter's big day.
So another crazy chapter in my life is starting. One that will bring lots of joy, lots of anxiety and lots of tears. She's already set up an appointment to look at wedding dresses with me, my mom and her future mother in law. We plan on making that a day of just pure fun. And bless my little girl's heart - she wanted to know if it would be too weird for her to share a dance with me at the reception because, in her words, "Dad gets a dance with me so you should too". That brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.
I am just so proud and happy for my little girl. I am so grateful that TheColdOne is no longer in the picture - he was always such an ass about my daughter. He once told me that my daughter was just using me - guess after all that's happened that ended up being more like the pot calling the kettle black. Despite his negativity my daughter has grown up to be quite a woman and a mommy. No mother could ask for anything more. And this wedding is gonna ROCK!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Contested Divorce in Georgia? Hurry Up and Wait!
A divorce can stir up all kinds of emotions – especially anger, stress and anxiety. Just about any emotion known to man can be whipped into a frenzy by a divorce. As if that avalanche of emotions was not enough, the legal process of a divorce only adds to the disaster – especially if it is a contested divorce. If at all possible, it’s best to come to a settlement without the court getting involved.
But, as in my case with TheColdOne, there was no other alternative left for me. If your soon-to-be-ex is hiding assets,refusing to pay you a fair amount or not providing the documentation needed, a contested divorce is your only alternative.
The Courts may order mediation but it was a waste of time for my situation. In almost 2 years, I could not get TheColdOne to agree to a fair settlement. Why would sitting down with a mediator make any difference? I was right and it ended up costing me $200 for the mediator and $1500 in attorney’s fees for the waste of time.
So we ended up going to court. It took over 6 months to get a court date. My attorney was going out on maternity leave at the end of Feb 2010 so we sent a letter to the Court in January asking that the case be scheduled as soon after the maternity leave as possible (the maternity leave ended the last week in April). Numerous letters and phone calls – from my attorney and TheColdOne’s attorney – had no effect. The case was finally scheduled for August 30. As Murphy’s Law would have it, my witnesses would be on an Alaskan Cruise on that date (the cruise was scheduled a year prior) so we agreed to re-schedule the hearing. It was re-scheduled for September 22.
Keep in mind that during this waiting period, my attorney fees were adding up. Every time the attorney called the court, emailed me, wrote a letter, etc trying to get the case scheduled in was an additionalexpense. Couple that with the fact that TheColdOne refused to turn over documentation and most of the research into his financial status was done by my side, and you have quite a hefty legal bill.
The day of the hearing finally arrived and it went as well as can be expected. It took almost 4 hours for both side to present their case. When my attorney completed her closing argument, the judge stated that he was granting the divorce, restoring my name to my maiden name but he was going to review the documentation. He stated that a written settlement would be communicated via the attorneys involved.
That was over 1 month ago and the settlement order has yet to be issued. I may be divorced but have no documentation to prove it. I am back to my maiden name but can’t legally change any of my identification until I have the signed order. Not to mention that I have no idea if I am getting any settlement money so my financial status remains in limbo with a bill for legal fees staring at my face. I don’t even want to bring up the anxiety and stress that this waiting for a settlement has heaped on my shoulders.
According to the Uniform Superior Court Rules for the State of GA, Rule 8.1 Scheduling of Trials clearly states that “…it is the intendment of these rules that no matter be allowed to languish, and the assigned judge is responsible for the orderly movement and disposition of all matters.” I think a delay of over 6 months would qualify as “languishing” and certainly doesn’t pass the “orderly movement” clause.
The Georgia Code of Judicial Conduct states that “Judges shall dispose of all judicial matters fairly,promptly and efficiently.” The commentary underneath this conduct item clearly states that “…judges must demonstrate due regard for the rights of the parties to be heard and to have issues resolved without unnecessary cost or delay.” I think the judge responsible for my case should get a “doesn’t meet expectations” mark on his evaluation for this item.
There is truly no excuse for the multiple delays in getting my divorce resolved. January 8, 2011 will mark the 2 year anniversary of the day TheColdOne decided he wanted his freedom. I certainly hope that I don’t have to wait that long to finally get closure on the disaster that was my marriage.
But, as in my case with TheColdOne, there was no other alternative left for me. If your soon-to-be-ex is hiding assets,refusing to pay you a fair amount or not providing the documentation needed, a contested divorce is your only alternative.
The Courts may order mediation but it was a waste of time for my situation. In almost 2 years, I could not get TheColdOne to agree to a fair settlement. Why would sitting down with a mediator make any difference? I was right and it ended up costing me $200 for the mediator and $1500 in attorney’s fees for the waste of time.
So we ended up going to court. It took over 6 months to get a court date. My attorney was going out on maternity leave at the end of Feb 2010 so we sent a letter to the Court in January asking that the case be scheduled as soon after the maternity leave as possible (the maternity leave ended the last week in April). Numerous letters and phone calls – from my attorney and TheColdOne’s attorney – had no effect. The case was finally scheduled for August 30. As Murphy’s Law would have it, my witnesses would be on an Alaskan Cruise on that date (the cruise was scheduled a year prior) so we agreed to re-schedule the hearing. It was re-scheduled for September 22.
Keep in mind that during this waiting period, my attorney fees were adding up. Every time the attorney called the court, emailed me, wrote a letter, etc trying to get the case scheduled in was an additionalexpense. Couple that with the fact that TheColdOne refused to turn over documentation and most of the research into his financial status was done by my side, and you have quite a hefty legal bill.
The day of the hearing finally arrived and it went as well as can be expected. It took almost 4 hours for both side to present their case. When my attorney completed her closing argument, the judge stated that he was granting the divorce, restoring my name to my maiden name but he was going to review the documentation. He stated that a written settlement would be communicated via the attorneys involved.
That was over 1 month ago and the settlement order has yet to be issued. I may be divorced but have no documentation to prove it. I am back to my maiden name but can’t legally change any of my identification until I have the signed order. Not to mention that I have no idea if I am getting any settlement money so my financial status remains in limbo with a bill for legal fees staring at my face. I don’t even want to bring up the anxiety and stress that this waiting for a settlement has heaped on my shoulders.
According to the Uniform Superior Court Rules for the State of GA, Rule 8.1 Scheduling of Trials clearly states that “…it is the intendment of these rules that no matter be allowed to languish, and the assigned judge is responsible for the orderly movement and disposition of all matters.” I think a delay of over 6 months would qualify as “languishing” and certainly doesn’t pass the “orderly movement” clause.
The Georgia Code of Judicial Conduct states that “Judges shall dispose of all judicial matters fairly,promptly and efficiently.” The commentary underneath this conduct item clearly states that “…judges must demonstrate due regard for the rights of the parties to be heard and to have issues resolved without unnecessary cost or delay.” I think the judge responsible for my case should get a “doesn’t meet expectations” mark on his evaluation for this item.
There is truly no excuse for the multiple delays in getting my divorce resolved. January 8, 2011 will mark the 2 year anniversary of the day TheColdOne decided he wanted his freedom. I certainly hope that I don’t have to wait that long to finally get closure on the disaster that was my marriage.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Three Little Words That Can Change Your Life
There are 3 little words that can change your life. No - I'm not talking about "I love you". The life changing words are "I am sorry". Simple phrase - not difficult to pronounce but it carries such a punch that it can change the course of your entire life.
In this crazy screwed up world where responsibility and accountability are nothing more than talking points for politicians, we all seem to have forgotten how to apologize. How many times have you heard "I'm sorry if what I said offended some people"? That is nothing more than a half-baked way of saying that you know you offended some people without really taking any responsibility for what you said.
How would your life be different if someone had bothered to tell you that they were sorry? I know that events in my life would have been different had TheColdOne ever uttered those 3 little words. I can't recall him ever saying he was sorry or asking for my forgiveness for the things he did to hurt me. (Although he did say "I'm sorry - it's over" when he told me he was filing for divorce). When I caught him running around with his ex-wife behind my back, I ended up getting blamed for it. I was not making him happy, yada yada yada. My favorite excuse was "You should have trusted me enough not to go checking on my emails". HAH - talk about deflecting the blame.
Even when I was in the hospital after my attempted suicide (or as TheColdOne called it in court - "the attention seeking stunt" or the "so-called suicide attempt"), TheColdOne didn't apologize. He just kept saying "I want my old Robin back". Little did he know but the "old Robin" was dead - he killed her with his lack of respect and responsibility. But a simple "I am sorry" could have injected some air into my lungs and brought me back to life - at least that is what my 20/20 hindsight says.
The biggest downside to this failure to apologize is that those of us due the apology end up taking on the blame for the situation. Familiar phrases like "If only I had..." or "I need to behave in this way..." ends up fueling the guilt which after a while ends up dragging us down into a depression. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying that depression is caused by one incident - it is usually a pattern of behaviors over a period of time can trigger a depressive episode. As the depression worsens, you end up shouldering even more of the blame and taking responsibility for everything which only adds fuel to the fire. It's a damned horrific vicious cycle. In my case, TheColdOne's "never apologize" attitude literally sucked the joy out of my life and left me a shell of the person I once was.
Saying "I am sorry" is also a great way to start the forgiveness chain rolling - it's much harder for someone to harbor anger in their heart when you have truly apologized. Sadly there are many people, including TheColdOne, who will never understand the importance of those 3 little words. They'll keep offending people and shoving the blame over onto them until eventually they end up alone in a nursing home with no visitors. But in order for you to live a full and healthy life, forgive you must - even if there is no apology.
So "man up" people (or "woman up" to be politically correct) - accept the responsibility for your actions. Prove that you are accountable for what comes spewing out of your mouth. Say those 3 little words that mean so much to people. I guarantee you that your life will be much better for it.
May God continue to bless you all.
In this crazy screwed up world where responsibility and accountability are nothing more than talking points for politicians, we all seem to have forgotten how to apologize. How many times have you heard "I'm sorry if what I said offended some people"? That is nothing more than a half-baked way of saying that you know you offended some people without really taking any responsibility for what you said.
How would your life be different if someone had bothered to tell you that they were sorry? I know that events in my life would have been different had TheColdOne ever uttered those 3 little words. I can't recall him ever saying he was sorry or asking for my forgiveness for the things he did to hurt me. (Although he did say "I'm sorry - it's over" when he told me he was filing for divorce). When I caught him running around with his ex-wife behind my back, I ended up getting blamed for it. I was not making him happy, yada yada yada. My favorite excuse was "You should have trusted me enough not to go checking on my emails". HAH - talk about deflecting the blame.
Even when I was in the hospital after my attempted suicide (or as TheColdOne called it in court - "the attention seeking stunt" or the "so-called suicide attempt"), TheColdOne didn't apologize. He just kept saying "I want my old Robin back". Little did he know but the "old Robin" was dead - he killed her with his lack of respect and responsibility. But a simple "I am sorry" could have injected some air into my lungs and brought me back to life - at least that is what my 20/20 hindsight says.
The biggest downside to this failure to apologize is that those of us due the apology end up taking on the blame for the situation. Familiar phrases like "If only I had..." or "I need to behave in this way..." ends up fueling the guilt which after a while ends up dragging us down into a depression. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying that depression is caused by one incident - it is usually a pattern of behaviors over a period of time can trigger a depressive episode. As the depression worsens, you end up shouldering even more of the blame and taking responsibility for everything which only adds fuel to the fire. It's a damned horrific vicious cycle. In my case, TheColdOne's "never apologize" attitude literally sucked the joy out of my life and left me a shell of the person I once was.
Saying "I am sorry" is also a great way to start the forgiveness chain rolling - it's much harder for someone to harbor anger in their heart when you have truly apologized. Sadly there are many people, including TheColdOne, who will never understand the importance of those 3 little words. They'll keep offending people and shoving the blame over onto them until eventually they end up alone in a nursing home with no visitors. But in order for you to live a full and healthy life, forgive you must - even if there is no apology.
So "man up" people (or "woman up" to be politically correct) - accept the responsibility for your actions. Prove that you are accountable for what comes spewing out of your mouth. Say those 3 little words that mean so much to people. I guarantee you that your life will be much better for it.
May God continue to bless you all.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Time, Talent, Treasure
We are coming to the end of our stewardship campaign at church - most people cringe when they hear the word "stewardship", automatically thinking "here comes the campaign for money". This year our church took a different track - focusing on Time, Talent & Treasure. The bullet points were so straight to the point that I thought I would share them with you.
Time - When God gives us life, we do not know how much time we have to use that life, but whatever time we have is a gift from God, and we must use it wisely in every activity throughout the day to fulfill God's plan
Talent - God has made each of us a steward - and has given us abilities and talents that are unique. We should use these abilities and talents to serve God. The Bible tells us if we use our talents wisely, we will be better able to use them and will develop others - if we don't use them, we may lose them.
Treasure - The Bible says that we should set aside our "first fruits" - that our offering to God should be the first portion we set aside, not what remains.
You see, these 3 things are not just appropriate for stewardship campaigns - they should guide the way we live our lives. Even if your "treasure" is virtually non-existant, you still have time and talent. Your time is tight but surely you can take a few minutes a day to thank God for your blessings and ask Him for guidance.
Pray on these 3 items and ask God to help you find your way to your purpose. No matter what His response is, always remember that God created a wonderful gift when He created you!
God Bless You!
Time - When God gives us life, we do not know how much time we have to use that life, but whatever time we have is a gift from God, and we must use it wisely in every activity throughout the day to fulfill God's plan
Talent - God has made each of us a steward - and has given us abilities and talents that are unique. We should use these abilities and talents to serve God. The Bible tells us if we use our talents wisely, we will be better able to use them and will develop others - if we don't use them, we may lose them.
Treasure - The Bible says that we should set aside our "first fruits" - that our offering to God should be the first portion we set aside, not what remains.
You see, these 3 things are not just appropriate for stewardship campaigns - they should guide the way we live our lives. Even if your "treasure" is virtually non-existant, you still have time and talent. Your time is tight but surely you can take a few minutes a day to thank God for your blessings and ask Him for guidance.
Pray on these 3 items and ask God to help you find your way to your purpose. No matter what His response is, always remember that God created a wonderful gift when He created you!
God Bless You!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Liars and the Lies They Tell Themselves
There is nothing more detestable to me than someone that is a liar, especially one that tells lies in order to gain sympathy for themself. It never ceases to amaze me how someone can just tell multiple lies and go on about their life with no remorse. There is no conscience - no accountability and no responsibility. Odds are this person is quite adept at playing the victim. Sure it may get them a bit of happiness or even some money, but at what cost?
These people are usually the ones that claim anyone that says something less than kind about them is a liar. They can't handle the truth even when confronted face to face - like say, in a courtroom. They keep pointing fingers at everyone else claiming THEY are the wronged one. Morons feel sorry for the Liar - they just can't understand why people speak so mean about such a good hearted person. These vessels of sympathy deserve just as much scorn as the liars themselves.
Frankly I have no sympathy for someone that chooses to live the life of a liar. Whatever result they end up with is well deserved. One thing is for certain - when they reach the pearly gates, they will not be able to lie their way out of their punishment.
When you are confronted with a liar your first reaction is anger - you just want to put your fist through the face of the evil one. Dear Brothers and Sisters - don't give the liar the satisfaction of knowing that they are able to still control your emotions. The best thing to do is turn away and say a prayer for the liar - pray that they realize their mistakes and ask for forgiveness before it is too late. There is nothing you can do to embarrass or degrade this liar - they are doing it to themselves and will take down all those around them. Let go and let God handle them - when you quit trying to fight the battles, you open the door for God to fight them for you. And dear one, He most certainly will fight for you.
Read Psalm 109:1-20 if you are still having anger issues...
My God, whom I praise, do not remain silent
for people who are wicked and deceitful
have opened their mouths against me;
they have spoken against me with lying tongues.
With words of hatred they surround me, they attacked me without cause.
In return for my friendship they accuse me,but I am a man of prayer.
They repay me evil for good, and hatred for my friendship.
Appoint someone evil to oppose my enemy;
let an accuser stand at his right hand.
When he is tried, let him be found guilty, and may his prayers condemn him.
May his days be few;
may another take his place of leadership.
May his children be fatherless and his wife a widow.
May his children be wandering beggars;
may they be driven from their ruined homes.
May a creditor seize all he has;
may strangers plunder the fruits of his labor.
May no one extend kindness to him or take pity on his fatherless children.
May his descendants be cut off, their names blotted out from the next generation.
May the iniquity of his fathers be remembered before the Lord;
May the sin of his mother never be blotted out.
May their sins always remain before the LORD, that he may blot out their name from the earth
For he never thought of doing a kindness, but hounded to death the poor and the needy and the brokenhearted.
He loved to pronounce a curse - may it come on him.
He found no pleasure in blessing - may it be far from him.
He worse cursing as his garment;
it entered into his body like water, into his bones like oil.
May it be like a cloak wrapped about him, like a belt tied forever around him.
May this be the LORD"s payment to my accuser, to those who speak evil of me.
There now - you should feel a bit better.
And writing a tell-all book about the liar and his lies that includes pictures certainly doesn't hurt either. Wink-Wink...
May God Bless You!
These people are usually the ones that claim anyone that says something less than kind about them is a liar. They can't handle the truth even when confronted face to face - like say, in a courtroom. They keep pointing fingers at everyone else claiming THEY are the wronged one. Morons feel sorry for the Liar - they just can't understand why people speak so mean about such a good hearted person. These vessels of sympathy deserve just as much scorn as the liars themselves.
Frankly I have no sympathy for someone that chooses to live the life of a liar. Whatever result they end up with is well deserved. One thing is for certain - when they reach the pearly gates, they will not be able to lie their way out of their punishment.
When you are confronted with a liar your first reaction is anger - you just want to put your fist through the face of the evil one. Dear Brothers and Sisters - don't give the liar the satisfaction of knowing that they are able to still control your emotions. The best thing to do is turn away and say a prayer for the liar - pray that they realize their mistakes and ask for forgiveness before it is too late. There is nothing you can do to embarrass or degrade this liar - they are doing it to themselves and will take down all those around them. Let go and let God handle them - when you quit trying to fight the battles, you open the door for God to fight them for you. And dear one, He most certainly will fight for you.
Read Psalm 109:1-20 if you are still having anger issues...
My God, whom I praise, do not remain silent
for people who are wicked and deceitful
have opened their mouths against me;
they have spoken against me with lying tongues.
With words of hatred they surround me, they attacked me without cause.
In return for my friendship they accuse me,but I am a man of prayer.
They repay me evil for good, and hatred for my friendship.
Appoint someone evil to oppose my enemy;
let an accuser stand at his right hand.
When he is tried, let him be found guilty, and may his prayers condemn him.
May his days be few;
may another take his place of leadership.
May his children be fatherless and his wife a widow.
May his children be wandering beggars;
may they be driven from their ruined homes.
May a creditor seize all he has;
may strangers plunder the fruits of his labor.
May no one extend kindness to him or take pity on his fatherless children.
May his descendants be cut off, their names blotted out from the next generation.
May the iniquity of his fathers be remembered before the Lord;
May the sin of his mother never be blotted out.
May their sins always remain before the LORD, that he may blot out their name from the earth
For he never thought of doing a kindness, but hounded to death the poor and the needy and the brokenhearted.
He loved to pronounce a curse - may it come on him.
He found no pleasure in blessing - may it be far from him.
He worse cursing as his garment;
it entered into his body like water, into his bones like oil.
May it be like a cloak wrapped about him, like a belt tied forever around him.
May this be the LORD"s payment to my accuser, to those who speak evil of me.
There now - you should feel a bit better.
And writing a tell-all book about the liar and his lies that includes pictures certainly doesn't hurt either. Wink-Wink...
May God Bless You!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Rest in Peace Robin B.
Robin B. died on January 8, 2009. Gone was the woman with a quick smile and easy laugh. Gone was the one with a ready come-back to a smart ass question. Gone was the woman who had fallen head over heels in love with her husband almost at first sight 10 years before. Gone was the woman with a heart so big and full of love that she would forgive anything just to keep her marriage and home intact. Gone was the woman who stood in front of God and her family and promised “til death do us part” 10 years earlier.
It wasn’t a natural death. It was a death brought on by years of mental cruelty and heartlessness. It was preceded by years of lying and cheating coupled with put-downs and personal attacks. The years of orders to “suck it up” and “get a hobby” had taken their toll. An earlier brush with death, in the form of a suicide attempt, should have been a warning to Robin B. but she just kept on living with the evil that had pushed her near the breaking point once before.
The death blow came at a moment when Robin B. was already on her knees and in a weakened state. The “murderer” couldn’t have picked a better time to deliver the final punch. There was no remorse on the part of the one who picked this time to crush Robin – just a sense of his own freedom in his selfish perverted world of “me first”.
She never saw it coming. She thought that a trip to the Psychiatrist and a new prescription would protect her. Robin naively thought that love would save the day. She was caught completely off guard. She walked right into the death trap with her heart on a silver platter. The fiend disguised as her husband just threw her heart on the floor and smashed it with the sole of his hunting boot. He never looked back – he just stepped over the carnage as he moved on.
But all was not lost. Like the proverbial Phoenix rising from the ashes, a new Robin was born. This Robin took a while to pull herself together into a whole being. The transformation was not pretty – it was bloody and tear-filled with lots of wailing and cries out for help. It was only after the muddled mess of humanity cried out to God in utter despair that the pieces started taking shape. It wasn’t just one cry to God – it was many. It wasn’t just a simple cry – it was a scream that came from the very depths of her soul. When she gave up fighting on her own and turned everything over to God, the new Robin began to take shape.
The new Robin is still in the midst of transformation. There have been several glitches and “do-overs” that required more tears and attitude adjustments in order to get back on the right track. She is so very far from perfect and will only reach perfection when her real time on this earth is complete. She has scars but they only serve to remind her of the battles she has fought and won with God at her side. There is one thing that is firmly entrenched in this battle scarred woman – a firm knowledge that no matter what any human may do, she is wholly and unconditionally loved by her Father. And THAT gives her the reason to continue to push through the pain of transformation and into her new life.
May God Bless You All.
It wasn’t a natural death. It was a death brought on by years of mental cruelty and heartlessness. It was preceded by years of lying and cheating coupled with put-downs and personal attacks. The years of orders to “suck it up” and “get a hobby” had taken their toll. An earlier brush with death, in the form of a suicide attempt, should have been a warning to Robin B. but she just kept on living with the evil that had pushed her near the breaking point once before.
The death blow came at a moment when Robin B. was already on her knees and in a weakened state. The “murderer” couldn’t have picked a better time to deliver the final punch. There was no remorse on the part of the one who picked this time to crush Robin – just a sense of his own freedom in his selfish perverted world of “me first”.
She never saw it coming. She thought that a trip to the Psychiatrist and a new prescription would protect her. Robin naively thought that love would save the day. She was caught completely off guard. She walked right into the death trap with her heart on a silver platter. The fiend disguised as her husband just threw her heart on the floor and smashed it with the sole of his hunting boot. He never looked back – he just stepped over the carnage as he moved on.
But all was not lost. Like the proverbial Phoenix rising from the ashes, a new Robin was born. This Robin took a while to pull herself together into a whole being. The transformation was not pretty – it was bloody and tear-filled with lots of wailing and cries out for help. It was only after the muddled mess of humanity cried out to God in utter despair that the pieces started taking shape. It wasn’t just one cry to God – it was many. It wasn’t just a simple cry – it was a scream that came from the very depths of her soul. When she gave up fighting on her own and turned everything over to God, the new Robin began to take shape.
The new Robin is still in the midst of transformation. There have been several glitches and “do-overs” that required more tears and attitude adjustments in order to get back on the right track. She is so very far from perfect and will only reach perfection when her real time on this earth is complete. She has scars but they only serve to remind her of the battles she has fought and won with God at her side. There is one thing that is firmly entrenched in this battle scarred woman – a firm knowledge that no matter what any human may do, she is wholly and unconditionally loved by her Father. And THAT gives her the reason to continue to push through the pain of transformation and into her new life.
May God Bless You All.
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